don't know where i'm going or what i'm doing.
don't know what's happening.
i'm just existing.
everything seems like its going wrong for me.
i know other people have it worse than i do, but i just can't help but feel bad about it.
and i know everything happens for a reason, but i'd like to know the reasons now.
i'd like to get some validation that i'm not royally screwing everything up.
why can't it just get better?
it has to get better at some point, right?
where else can it go but up?
